Lacking Something

This was what I wrote in the beginning of February.

I feel like I'm always lacking something. I feel as if I have no direction of what I want to do. Like I know what I want to do but I never have the right words to say. My blog has a bunch of saved writing pieces that I've written every two weeks and I did not post any of them because I feel as if they don't fully say what I want to say.

A bit about what is going on now: The stress of senior year is finally leaving because I have like five months of school left. Sooner or later, I'll be going to one of the six schools I got accepted to.

Even what I'm writing now feels empty. I'm posting this to let you guys know that I'm still here.
I'm still trying my hardest to make this blog possible.

I'm lacking my creativity for this blog, but I am trying my hardest to come up with something good.

Thank you guys for still reading.

Christmas Wish List!

Hey guys! Sorry for a delay in my posting, deadlines for college are approaching and I'm still applying. Anyway, today I decided to blog about my Christmas wish list because Christmas is literally this Friday and I'm so excited! For those who need ideas for Christmas gifts, maybe my list will inspire you or something.

1. NuMe Products- Lustrum Set and Silhouette I've been dying to get their curling wands and straighteners for the longest time because I want to learn how to do my hair so it can look nicer and less messier. 
2. Lush!- Because who wouldn't want Lush as a Christmas gift?! It smells amazing and their Christmas products are adorable.
3. Pandora Ring- Part of me has always wanted to have a ring to wear and Pandora sells really affordable rings so who knows, maybe I'll buy one for myself.
4. Makeup- Any type of makeup would be nice, I really want to experiment with makeup tbh
5. Tiny Tea Detox- A friend recommended it and said it turned her into a tea lover and gave her energy to do things throughout the day (which I definitely need)
6. Fjallraven Kanken- I have one in a fog grey color for school and it is my absolute favorite bag that I just have to get another one.
7. Wildflower Phone Case- Sydney and Devon Lee Carlson always promote those phone cases and it makes me want one so badly
8. Dr. Martens- It's just a tradition that I have to get a new pair of Dr. Marten's every year
9. A cute purse- Since I now have to try carrying purses around because my mom said so.
10. Headphones- Any type of headphones would be nice
11. Jewelery and Clothes- Because I am no longer a little kid who hates getting clothes on Christmas.

That is what I want for Christmas! I would be extremely lucky and thankful to receive these gifts and I'm actually going to be buying some of these on my own because I now have a job in which I can buy myself stuff! Before Christmas I will post "Gift Giving" (what I have bought others) and I will have a "What to do for Christmas" post for you guys. Talk to you guys soon 

Gone for Two Months.

Hey guys! It's been a while, I know, I am so sorry. Life has just been too busy for me. But I am back and I've missed writing on this blog.

SO I know you guys probably have questions like: Where have you been? When and what will you be posting on this blog? Will you possibly take breaks like this one in the future?

I've been places. I've been at work taking photos and editing them while going to portfolio reviews. I've been with my boyfriend, hanging out and watching movies while he still isn't completely busy with sports. I've been trying to finish college applications so I can advance with my future and so I won't stress out about it next year. I've been around.

I haven't found out when I will be officially posting on this blog, maybe it might be on the weekends because that's when I find myself the least busy out of all the days of the weeks. As of what I will be posting is totally up to me. For the past weeks that I've been off of my blog, I've been thinking of ways to improve my blog. It's still a work in progress. But hopefully it'll come out to be really cool by the time 2016 begins.

Everyone takes breaks. This has not been the first time I've taken a break from a blog. This will probably not be my last time. The reason why I took this break was so I can get my life back together so I can come back and give you great blog quality. It's better to leave and come back with a bang then stay and not show your best work.

But for now, I am back and I can't wait to show you guys what is to come in the future. If you guys have any topic you'd like me to talk about in my next post, please let me know! I'd love to write about anything that you would like to know. Thanks and see you guys soon :)

Let's Talk.

Hey guys. It's me Ambar. I'm currently in that point of time when I have no clue on what to post. Writers block much? Yup. As of now, I'm drinking some hot chocolate from Dunkin Donuts and I have all my homework laid out next to me, probably homework that I don't even want to start yet.

I'm still stuck having PCD, and honestly it's real. I just wish it was October 2nd again, and I would've been heading to the venue right now.

I'm wearing my most bummiest clothes today; a black shirt, sweats (which I have to change out of later) and a burgundy purplish cardigan. I want to post an OOTW like every month, but I always wear like the same stuff every week.

On October 29th, I have homecoming! I'm not completely sure I want to go but if I do then I hope I have fun. I'm not much of a dancer but you gotta enjoy dances on senior year by what everyone says.

October 30th, WIPED OUT! is released and I'm so pumped, I'm currently trying to get my parents to order the bundle for me before it sells out because that means more The NBHD merch and I love merch.

Halloween is also coming up pretty soon and I think I have the best costume ever set out. I just have to go buy all the items, but I'm really excited. I'm probably celebrating Halloween with my friends and then at night with my brother and his friend because he's going to celebrate his birthday on Halloween.


Anyways, how is everyone's life? Is everything going good? Did you pass your test this week? If you did, I'm proud of you! Are you not looking forward to a stressful week? It's okay, we all go through the toughest times, you'll get through this week. Life flies by in a flash so don't get hung up on a stressful week.

I hope you guys just enjoyed this random blog post. I'm trying to get my life together... ALSO. I am thinking of schedules for my blog for the upcoming new year. Be prepared for a wild 2016... even though its still October 2015.